Unfolding

This 2018 is revealing itself to be quite an interesting year, a lot of newness in my life is happening right now. After a long phase of having put my brain and life on hold, once again, I recently looked in the mirror one day and heard something saying: “where have you been, good to see you again, I have been waiting for you, because I knew that I was going to see you here again soon”.  I suppose that was the voice of my conscience, my poor old conscience, so patient with all my mood swings, which do not last a day or two in my case, but rather a year or two, or even more. Here I am again, looking at myself straight in the eyes, and trying to pick up my pieces and start anew, a new chapter, a new phase of growth.

I feel it coming every time, I start to feel uncomfortable, the world around me is all of a sudden too tight, too suffocating, too small, and everything that surrounds me is a sign that it is time for change, for growth, for the next level. When I heard the first time the sentence “transform obstacles into opportunities” I thought : “yes, right, whatever, another of those smart ass sentences, impossible to put into practice”. Instead, I must say today, that it is indeed a very brilliant sentence so deep and true in meaning. Naturally, living an authentic and raw life isn’t easy, but noting easy is worth doing, and where there is no challenge there is no success. One must be willing to move beyond the comfort zone in order to live a successful life.

What do I mean by successful life? I mean a life lived in the way I want, being able to be free to do the things that make me happy, that liberate me, that take me in the direction of my dreams, using the senses as my internal compass. Real success is knowing that you did your best at anything you are trying to do. Trust your gut. Trust yourself. Take small steps. Relax. Pay your bills. Things are going to work out. Patience. Set your intention. Things arrive when they are supposed to. Just like fruit falls off the tree when it’s perfectly ripe.  The whole life is a journey to be enjoyed, and viewed as an amazing chance to unfold, through the discovery of our path. We cannot waste our lives working at jobs that just allow us to get money, life is too short to be used that way, life must be lived with the intention to find one’s vocation and mission. Our senses will lead us to our dreams.

Success takes us to freedom, but what do we exactly mean by freedom? Well, I believe that just like about anything in life also the concept of freedom is relative. For me freedom has always been very important and I realize that I dedicated all my existence to gain more and more freedom slowly but surely in every aspect. How has the meaning of freedom evolved in my mind? At age 15, freedom was represented by having a boyfriend, at age 20 freedom was represented by traveling, and living on my own away from home. At age 30 freedom was having and building a family the way I wanted. At age 35 freedom meant getting to meet myself as a woman, a mother, a goddess. Freedom to be my wild self. Free to be me. At age 40 freedom means financial freedom. Free to run after my dreams and live the life I want. Free from scarcity, free from that feeling of not having enough. The feeling of scarcity is the cause of a lot pain, distress, and anxiety, and these are all mental states that bring us farther from our soul, farther from peace.

I was impressed the other day listening to Oprah Winfrey’s interview to writer Cheryl Strayed, who I love. Oprah asked a very profound question to Cheryl: “What do you think is the biggest obstacle to peace?”. Cheryl thought for a moment and then turned towards Oprah and said: “Scarcity”. Scarcity can occur in any field of life: scarcity of love, money etc. but all these cause the same effect: a sense of loss of power, and in most cases these people will devote their existence to regaining that power, they will direct their energy to hold power instead of sharing love. Sharing love causes freedom, holding onto power causes slavery of the soul. When you are free and happy you attract abundance and the Universe will show you the way. Never hesitate to dare. Run after your dreams and there you can find the life meant for you. Never for a moment let fear stop you or slow you down, fear exists to be defeated, use caution to go in the direction were you feel at home, where your heart beats, because it is only there and with that happy and fulfilled state of mind that you can serve your purpose in this world.

With much Love.